I was wondering when my sweet little Courtney went blind and I knew it was coming up. It was a year ago on the 15th of this month that my little girl was diagnosed with SARDS. As I recall that day, I can go back in my mind and feel exactly what I felt as I drove home with her from the eye specialist. As we drove home together I could hardly see the road because the tears were falling from my eyes . I felt myself gasping for air as I felt I could barely breathe. My heart broke for my sweet girl.
Courtney lay in her bed next to me while I drove home. I began to speak aloud to her that we would get through this and that I would always take care of her.
The diagnosis that I was afraid to here was confirmed and I knew that our lives would never be the same. Coming home was sad as I now watched her bump into furniture and she became scared and timid. Her little forehead seemed to have a worried look on it. For the next few months she was not herself. She became depressed and seemed to not care any more.
Our daily walks became a chore. I now had to watch carefully when we came to a curb and tell her to up or down. I began to worry about her as we lived in a fairly large house.
I spent the next month trying to locate a smaller space for us to move into and in the next 5 weeks we moved to a cute smaller place in Palm Springs.
Watching her navigate her now dark world was hard for me to witness.
It has been a whole year now and I am so proud of Courtney. The first few months were rough but she has done so well. She knows her home very well and she even goes and spends time with her best friend Gracie at her house. She even goes in and out of Gracies doggie door with no problems.
A year ago, my heart was hurting. Now looking back I can still feel my heartache, but I can say that Courtney has adjusted to life without sight.
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